legally blonde!

i just saw Legally blonde tonight. and frankly i loved it! oh elle woods you played out a part of me there. i may not be pretty and i'm not blonde but for some reason i've battled first impressions too long and identifiable lost many. at the stage of life i'm at...graduating and seeing people fly away from my life for their masters and jobs, i so easily identified with her pursuit to keep her life in place and in ways alter her own. i'm off in a fortnight to a new city, a new school and ironically, like elle woods, to the east coast! oh i never imagined it'd fit so well to the night i needed reaffirmation that i mean something to someone somewhere.
today was just another draining fun day of college's last few days. i call draining because it's emotionally so, thanks to the downfall of the structure of a special friendship and in ways the end of the four best years of my young life. it was fun because i try to make it so...squeeze every drop of time and conversation i can from among the best people i've had in my life. oh i'm going to miss them! :'(
as i look ahead i feel fear. i always fear something to come when i wait for it to come. i fear of losing myself in that sweeping tide and i fear of losing people i hold dear. but this too shall pass! so elle woods taught me tonight...that the passion, conviction and self confidence are all the ingredients to a life!